This makes three.
I guess I will be.
Just lonely, for I cant see.
I dont seem to care.
I walk these empty halls.

I wondered how long it would take.
For these fools to leave.

Why do you even read these things anymore? I mean, who cares about the life of a burnout high schooler? I wouldn't. I would delete this message as soon as I could. I would probably block myself.
This sucks. I have changed and apparently I am not noticing. I really don't wanna change. I might as well be the New Age Peter Pan never wanting to grow up, This is fucking retarded. Again, why are you even reading this? I am losing friends, gaining new ones, losing them, gaining more.
I am apparently jittery, scatter brained and different, way different.
Nobody thinks I am normal anymore. They are scared.

I am sane for the first time
In seven days along a string
Of hardcore medicine
I tried to escape but I just
got drawn back to reality.
I dont Know Why

SO I AM IN LUNCH AT SCHOOL, AND MY FRIEND CAME TO THE TABLE AND STARTED SAYING THAT I AM NOT A TRUE WICCAN. SHE IS NOT EVEN A WICCAN, SHE IS A POSER AND SHE THINKS SHE KNOWS IT ALL, I WAS PISSED AND I CALLED HER A BITCH AND TOLD HER TO FUCK OFF.

I found an answer to my problem but I feel kinda different now that I became a Wiccan. Not like a Christian convert who doesn't feel any different after he becomes a Christian. I can constantly feel this energy flowing through me now and I enjoy the comfort it applies. I really enjoy all of this freedom. And I also can't believe how empowered I have become.
I don't have to worry constantly about forgiveness or anything like that. What will come will come. And I will be ready. I just can't get over this magical feeling.
I initiated myself since I am a solitary. Not many people are Wiccan in the Bible Belt. I feel so out of place. But I love it because the fact that I don't mind being different is totally challenged. I seem to be holding true.
I also don't have to worry about trying to change everyone I see into the same religion as me. That got annoying real quick. I hated proclaiming.
A lot of people have the wrong idea about Wicca, as a lot of people contrast it with Satanism. I know this isn't true because we don't even believe in Satan or hell or an evil sentient.